December 1, 2004
I was looking at some jewerly that I have from years ago. I never did without were my thoughts. I always had more than I needed. Clothes, jewerly, etc. I think we forget to be grateful for the things we do have. Like I said the other day, "We can eat three times a day, and some people in the world are lucky to get one substantial meal a day."

December 2, 2004
Take the time this minute to be grateful for the things we have. Bless your surroundings with gratefulness. Bow your head in prayer, your own prayer.

December 3, 2004
All of my life, the question has been to life, what is our purpose and why are we alive and conscious. What is the power of consciousness? Are we personally powerful. Do we have the power to really create our reality just the way we want it? I am living and questioning all of the time. I want to find purpose not in doing but in creating the world that I want to see.


December 4, 2004
I was riding on the C train the other morning and the conductor was talking to the people over the loud speaker. She was talking at a very high voice, amost as if she was a drill sergeant: She was literally hollering at us. Spiritually, I was assaulted. I was very uncomfortable. Why is there so much anger and hostility in our society? Even the fire trucks are an assult with their high sirens wailing at us. I have found that if I just push all thought from my mind, I can find peace in all of this rage.

December 5, 2004
The mind needs goals. It has to have things to move towards. My goal at this time is to pay off my credit cards. This takes constant focus on the NOW. Live each day, one at a time. Feel your life. Feel the freedom of the NOW moment. There is no pain and sorrow in the NOW moment. It just is, free and alive.

December 6, 2004
Do you know that sometimes your thoughts aren't really your thoughts at all. We also have thoughts in the air of the race consciousness. In orderwords, our karmic race inheritance. We incur the thoughts of our ancestors. So, we aren't just conending with our thoughts of the immediate moment, but at times picking up thoughts of the ancestry. That is why we have to guard our minds as though they are precious to us. Allow no thoughts to come in that are not valid in the NOW....

December 7,2004
We have the power to control our NOW moment.
The only power you really have is over yourself. You are not responsible for another's experience
but are responsible for your own. Be happy, be positive for what you have at this MOMENT. If you are fortunate to have love in your life, embrace it and be thankful for it. Some people never have love in their entire life. If you are financially independent, be thankful for that. Be thankful for all of your foresight in whatever business you are in, in having the ability to track the trends of the moment that will and can effect your business in the future. There is so much to be done in every MOMENT of your life. So much to be attended to NOW. There is no time to waste this precious time and energy to pain rememberances of the past. They are and were what they were. We cannot go back and change the past, but we can live better in the PRESENT MOMENT. Think of love and the whole world will be your lover.

December 8, 2004

I think it is important to live the simple life. Each day it is also important to be thankful. There are so many throughout the world who do not get a meal for days sometimes, have no warm bed to sleep in or even have a roof over their heads. You have a roof over your head. You have a job and are able to earn money. Some have a positive support system and family who love them. Some have no one who loves them. They are very lonely and afraid each day of their life. They harbour negative thoughts constantly and they have no way out of their dilemma. When you are feeling down and out, access what you have that is positive and that will get you out of yourself. Be thankful for the NOW and don't be afraid of what you think will happen tomorrow. Tomorrow will take care of itself if you are taking care of yourself today.

December 9, 2004
Embrace your life. Open your heart to love. You are very loveable. I care for you as though you were me. Be at peace because you are peace at the deepest level of your existence.

December 10, 2004
How can I help others be free? By being free of my own story and the thoughts of the past and future.

December 11, 2004
This is your life. Do what you need to do to stay strong. Live one day at a time. Dwell on positive things in your life. Look at all the positive aspects of your experience. Life responds to your core beliefs.

December 12, 2004
I have a big family: 2 sisters and 3 brothers, one of whom has passed away. I miss them so much. I just want to spend time with them and enjoy their individuality. You know, peace starts in the family and then it is carried over to the larger world. I believe that I am at peace with my brothers and sisters, whom I love so very much. When I see them, I feel proud and full of love.

December 13, 2004
When you want for another what you want for yourself, then peace is inevitable. True love, a feeling deep down inside brings about peace from within yourself. To wake up each day feeling healthy and positive is to me a wonderful gift from life. It is called it grace. Finding something you were not searching for. Grace is a miracle. And at this time, I am thankful for my life and my experiences on my journey to know and love myself. Experiences make life grow. You become aware of yourself and how you are thinking. When this happens you can start to bring about change within oneself. We need to have, mind training. Bringing the mind under your control. Rerouting unwanted thoughts. If each day is new then why have worn out thoughts that don't add to progress but only hinders experience. Each new experience is NEW. Brand new. Like each new day, NEW. To have a wonderful peace come over you where everything is NEW as though there was not yesterday at all to hinder the newness of each day.

December 14, 2004
We each have the capacity to bring peace and harmony into our lives, as well as into the lives of others. We set the tone of our experiences with other people. Be at war with yourself. Then that is what you bring into the world, your internal war. People will be there to play to your tune, but by frustrating yourself, you frustrate everybody else. We must become like little children to really see our lives. When we are like little children, then the world is new. You don't have to take a drug to experience what I am talking about.

December 15, 2004
Some days I wake up and I am very lonely. At times, when I go to sleep, I look at my life and start to cry. There has been so much pain and sorrow. I have been so strong in my life. There are days I want to lay down and go to sleep and never get up again. I want to awake from my dream and see that all of my life was spent in dreaming. The Course in Miracles states: "All of our lives are spent in dreaming. Our sleeping and waking dreams have different forms and that is all."

December 16, 2004
We are alone. That is the most sacred knowledge in the world. We are attached to one another, but detached from one another. This is the only life I know. I must live it in a positive state of mind. To be positive is so healthy and good for you. Negativity is so unhealthy: It ages the body and destroys the creative force, which is the mind.

December 17, 2004
We become connected by our emotional pain. We can share our stories of abuse and neglect and find that a lot of us were not happy with our formative years. The adults hindered positive expression in order to have control over us and their situation. Parents think that they teach the child when ultimately, the child teaches them.

December 18, 2004
Today I feel lonely and alone. I feel as though I have a broken heart. Fear seems to come over me and I know that I am not thinking fear, but I feel it in my atmosphere around me as though it is outside of me. Do I take this fear for real? I ask myself. The self says," Anything outside the self is not real." Fear is an emotion that must be eliminated from my state of awareness. FDR once aptly said: "The only thing to fear is fear itself!"

December 19, 2004
I will not let other people's opinions of me determine my self-worth.

December 20, 2004
I will not let another's negative state of life affect my state of awareness. All life is positive! Man is evolving into the self. Self-determination. He has the power to create his own world just the way he wants it. To be ruler over all and ruler of none.

December 21, 2004
The other day I was on the A train in the morning, and this young fairly attractive, well-dressed women, around 25-30, was asking for money. She told me that she and her husband were homeless and they sleep in a shelter, but have to get up and leave the shelter when morning comes. This caused me to feel upset inside. She was so young to be in need of shelter. I wish I could have given her the $20 I had in my pocket at the time but felt that I needed my $20. That I have to work 2 hours to earn this wage. My decision not to give her the only money I had on me bothered me for part of the day. The questions that arose bothered me: Should I have given her my $20? Was I giving her the $20 out of my own fear and guilt of being homeless myself? I will never know the answers, but I will tell you one thing, If I had a couple of dollars in my pocket, I would have given her at least a dollar or two just because I feel other person's pain. The least I could be is caring and positive for them.

December 22, 2004
If I were homeless, I would rather be in a warm climate. New York is too cold of a city to be homeless in. There are just too many people on this one island -- and too many homeless. Our shelter system is full to the brink with homelessness. Some families are homeless, which means the children are homeless in shelters. What strength it must take to be homeless, to live on the streets. These are my thoughts for today.


December 23, 2004
Tis' the season for family and good food. This is the time I really miss my family. When we were small and my grandmother was alive, we would have a large table of good food during Thanksgiving. There would be a house full of people. Some were playing cards, some would be playing Monopoly, the game. Some would be talking and laughing. There was just a house full of positivity. I miss my grandmother so much. When she passed away, all of the holiday ge-togethers stopped. That was a very sad day for me.

December 24, 2004
And so this is christmas. Time for rebirth and renewal. Time to shed our old habits and implement new progressive habits. Life is growth that's all there is growth. We are progressing to the "I AM" realization. As Jesus in the Christian faith once said: "If you see me, you see the father." For I and the father are one."

December 25, 2004
God has no opposites. We are at one with everybody else. Fields of opposites come when we think we are separate from everybody else, including life itself. We are only separate in ego. Ego will tell all the reasons why you are not one, you are not part of the life process. What you believe will come true of you. All is One...

December 26, 2004
God has no opposites. We are at one with everybody else. Fields of opposites come when we think we are separate from everybody else, including life itself. We are only separate in ego. Ego will tell all the reasons why you are not one, you are not part of the life process. What you believe will come true of you. All is One...


December 27, 2004
Do you know there are people in life who live as though life is a positive experience and have many positive experiences. But there are others who find life daunting, hard and not a positive experience. They have many negative experiences. We become how we were raised. How we were raised determines the outcome of our experiences. There are many levels of positive experiences, just like there are many levels of negative experiences. Can any of us really think 100% positively? That is my question. 100% positive would create a beautiful world where people really cared about one one another, where we all learn to share what we have not in fear, but in joy. Giving is a joyful experience for me. I love to give to help other people. If I can give, I give. Even if it is only $1.00, at least I was not be indifferent to the plight of my brother. We are our brother's keeper. I believethat if our brother is doing well, we will do well, too. As I have said before, we are one, though blind to the naked eye. It is a spiritual phenomenon. It is natural to give.

December 28, 2004
In my mind I think prosperity and positive happenings now, and in the future. I am the one through my thinking who wil determine my life's outcome. My future will be determined on how I am thinking about living. What thoughts I will allow to occupy my state of mind. If negative thoughts come up, I have to stop them at the mind's door. I will only allow positive to occupy my mind. All is good and all is right in the ray of creation.

December 29, 2004
How you are thinking every minute of your life determines the outcome. Our thinking becomes our reality. A friend of mine fears dying. He doesn't have anything else to think about so his mind starts to dwell on dying. We will all die someday. By giving this thought power, dying becomes fearful and destroys the moment when you are alive and well.

December 30, 2004
We are learning of our personal power to create a world that we may not want. It is up to us to change this world into a more positive, productive world where the human being matters. What is our self-worth?

December 31, 2004
I started the show because I did not like the way I was being treated by agents when I would take my pictures around. They wouldn't even open the door for an introduction. Then Al, who is a friend of mine said: "If you have a message, go on public access." And that is what I did. Then I realized I was a different person when I moved here. I felt free. In my freedom, I wanted to share what I learned with others, how our whole life is lived in shadows and fear. We fear the past and worry about the future, which is not here. Then we think up things to worry about because we are not comfortable in our silence. The truth is, we are that silence. That is what spirituality is, living in the silence and acting in the present moment with no preconception of the NOW. There is only space, there is only consciousness